Monday, March 15, 2010

Last week I was walking through the hospital on the way to the cafeteria when I noticed a sticker on the door to a bathroom that I have passed hundreds of times before. It was one of those stickers that lets you know there is a changing table inside. Seeing this made me think that I am going to need to know where all the changing tables in Asheville are.

This somehow clicked on a light bulb of epic proportions. It dawned on me at that moment that I am not only pregnant, not only going to be a consumer of baby-related products, but I am going to be a mother. A Mother! As in: responsible for another human being's safety, well-being, happiness, manners, and of course, any downfalls of personality (it's always the mother's fault, right?). I will be the person this little creature looks to when knees get scraped and hearts get broken. I will love this child unconditionally. My life is now lived for someone else. Needless to say, this hormonal pregnant lady teared up in the hospital hallway.

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  1. Dear Eryn,
    I remember a moment 20 years ago when that same realization hit me. Before that, when people talked about the epic fierceness of the love I would have for your child, I was like umm, okay. Little did I know how right they were, and that that fierce love doesn't dim. I feel the same way about her today as I did 20 years ago. :)Welcome to the club.
    Cindy

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  2. I'm not even pregnant and you have me tearing up! isn't it funny how you think you know something and then it REALLY HITS YOU. wow.

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  3. One of the joys of your relationship with Wesley is that not all things will be the mother's fault - most, but not all.

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